Purpose of my LIFE

Today it seems like my life consists of just "going with the tide" - and that I have no particular destination. When I look at my life, I have to ask myself, "Is this all there is?"

The pursuit of material things sometimes seem meaningless to me. I often feel as though life is passing by.

My time is consumed by things that need to be done, rather than things that are important to me. People put demands and responsibilities on me that are opposed to what I want for my life.

I have been trying to live up to everyone else's expectations while my own plans and dreams go unfulfilled.

I think I am not alone. Many people just feel like me. You might agree with my thoughts. There's more wisdom than meets the eye in John Lennon's famous saying: "Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."

Frankly, life is too short for us to waste most of it on the acquisition of material things, in trying to impress people we care little about, and on things that will have little or no value to us when we look back on our lives during our golden years.

Sometimes I feel like heaven on earth. These are the times when I meet my old friends, when I am sitting alone on garden bench in the evening and seeing a lovely couple and thinking of my beloved, when I think of all the foolish things I have done in my childhood. But these times come very rarely.

I don't know the purpose of my life.

I studied in the childhood as everybody does, made good friends there, passed higher secondary school with good grades. Now what? People told me to become a doctor or an engineer. I couldn't get in to a medical school, so joined an engineering school. Seniors told that 'Electronics' is latest trend and there are lots of opportunities in that. So I joined the 'Electronics' branch.

Than started my engineering studies at the age of 16. I left my home for studies, left all friends which mean a lot to me, left my city, left the girl next door peeping from behind the curtain. And now I was in a whole new world, new friends, new place, new atmosphere, everything different from what I had.

It was very hard to adjust than, but life goes on. Time healed everything. I made new friends; some of them became part of my life. The time was flying. Four years passed very quickly. I finished my Engineering. Now what? I decided to move to a big city, where I can find some opportunity and a good Job. Again it was time for some tears. Which didn't came from my eyes, but from heart. (Believe me, it’s very hard at times when you want to cry but you can't).

Now again, a new world, but it wasn't that hard as before. I started working in HUTCH (a Cellular company). I got involved with my work, my seniors and my colleagues very easily. I learned the REAL lessons of life. After six months, I changed the company; shifted to new place. Now it was not anything new for my life. I began to realize that it wasn't the change in my life, it itself was LIFE. The degree of homesickness was not like before. I met several people in my life; some of them are still with me, some in my memories, and one in my heart. I took everything for granted. I thought all these things are called life.

But deep down in my heart I felt like life has come to an end. I was not doing anything that I really wanted. I studied, like everybody does. I started working for a company, like everybody does, got some good amount of money, like almost every engineer does.

Life had become more like a routine to me; Working for whole week, going to movies, going out to restaurants and all that. What can be more frustrating when changes in your life feel like routine?

Now I really wanted something different. I thought of going to USA. The idea seemed pretty exiting. So I started to apply for Graduate schools for Masters. I got admission in a good university, started facing this NEW life. But still at nights, a frightening voice comes from within, to wake up, to escape, to fly, to destroy, to breakthrough, to break free. I don't have the solution, I feel like helpless. I feel numb.

If I look back at my past, I have done nothing which I really wanted to do. I am just flowing with tide; Hoping to get something better, to achieve some useless material thing, just running mad behind goals which are really not mine but planted by this world.

I am still in search of something new, something which will make me happy, something that I really want. But I don't know what that something is.

Is these all called life? What is the purpose of my life? Why do I exist? Why can't I do the things I want? Why can't I be with people I want? Why do I have to leave my friends? Is there anyone who can answer me?

Are you listening GOD?

The Value of a Drink

I have compiled some thoughts of Great people about the best thing that is available in this universe. My friend, Mr. J, laughed after reading this. But I didn't find anything funny in these. I think it is because Mr. J has never drunk. So what do you feel about this? How serious are you about these?


" Sometimes when I reflect back on all the wine I drink I feel shame. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the vineyards and all of their hopes and dreams . If I didn't drink this wine, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this wine and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver."

~ Jack Handy

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what the hell happened to your underwear.
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"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day. "

~Frank Sinatra

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, smarter, faster and better looking than most people.
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"When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading."

~ Henny Youngman

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may lead you to think people are laughing WITH you.
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"24 hours in a day, 24 beers in a case. Coincidence? I think not."

~ Stephen Wright

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to think you can sing.
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"When we drink, we get drunk. When we get drunk, we fall asleep. When we fall asleep, we commit no sin. When we commit no sin, we go to heaven. So, let's all get drunk and go to heaven!"

~ Brian O'Rourke

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause pregnancy.
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"Beer is proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy."

~ Benjamin Franklin

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like a retard.
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"Without question, the greatest invention in the history of mankind is beer. Oh, I grant you that the wheel was also a fine invention, but the wheel does not go nearly as well with pizza."

~ Dave Barry

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell your friends over and over again that you love them.
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To some, it's a six-pack, to me it's a Support Group. Salvation in a can!

~Dave Howell

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think you can logically converse with members of the opposite sex without spitting.
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And saving the best for last, as explained by Cliff Clavin,of Cheers.
One afternoon at Cheers, Cliff Clavin was explaining the Buffalo Theory to his buddy Norm. Here's how it went:

" Well ya see, Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffalo can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole, because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members. In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Excessive intake of alcohol, as we know, kills brain cells. But naturally, it attacks the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. That's why you always feel smarter after a few beers."

WARNING: The consumption of alcohol may make you think you are whispering when you are not
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There should be a better way to start a day, than waking up every morning.
~Brijesh Chauhan

Snow Fall

So here it comes again, snow fall. This is the 2nd time in this winter. And this is not any northern part of USA, this is Texas.

Surprised?

Well this is the way it is. But this is a very good day for all the "DESIs" to come out of their nests with their OWN digicams, stand in front of every place that seems to be white and click their snaps. Being a DESI, I know, how it feels when someone is clicking your snap in such occasions. Some one is thinking to send that picture to his girlfriend, someone is thinking of sending it to their parents. And I am not an exception.



And there are some guys, who stand near some GORI (American girls) with a mile long smile on their face and are thinking of sending that photo to their friends back home. They want to send a message through photo - "Look, I am in US, look at the girls around me, look at my life-style, now I am not one of you, my standard is higher than you." But we all know the real situation. Lets not talk about that.

Coming back to the topic, Snow Fall. What a beautiful day. I am listening to Beautiful Day (U2). Try this combination someday, you will definitely thank me.

FAQ

These are the questions I am daily facing from my friends. So please go through this once and than ask me any questions.

Q. How is life?
A. Cool

Q. What's up?
A. Nothing much

Q. Any GF in US?
A. No

Q. When are you coming back to India?
A. Don't know

Q. Hows your Studies going on?
A. Good till now

Q. What are the plans after Studies?
A. Don't know

Q. Do you like it there (US) so far?
A. Yes

Q. Are you online on Yahoo 24x7?
A. Yes